The semester has begun.
I already feel behind, and I know it's just an illusion. I'm doing fine. The lack of exercise is creeping up in me and causing me to feel more tired than I normally feel. I cur-fuddled an eBay auction on a 2nd Generation iPod shuffle this morning. I don't know why I thought it would only take me three seconds to hit confirm bid. It took longer than that so I completely missed out on what would have been a stellar find. I felt silly.....Watching the screen tic down seconds to only goof up my final click. Goodness.
I've let this whole iPod music situation deter me from hitting the gym. I know I need music to pump me through cardio. I LOVE MUSIC. I love the feeling of running to my favorite fast paced songs. I am so aware of it. What's not working for me is letting this music thing keep me from taking classes at the Y or doing a dvd at home---something to move my body in a way that will sustain me and keep me healthy.
I have a little over an hour before my next work shift starts and I have these little school things I need to do. I also have a tired body. Do I caffeinate and suck it up? Do I cuddle up with the Sonja cat and screw my responsibilities until work? Oh the guilt and frustration of decision making. I think I'm going to buy a new iPod today too so I can get back to the fitness I enjoy and love. My body is worth the price of a new music player. Good grief.
Just feeling tired.
And that's okay.
I'm aware of it.