Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Insights from a Three Year Old

While running an errand today, a brilliant little girl was with me. We went to Yavapai College's Library to see if a book was available that I had placed on hold. I explained this library is for college kids and adults and the library we just came from is for kids, that we still need to use our library voices and once we leave we can run around and be crazy and loud.

We walked in and she said, "It's strange in here."
I look at her and said, "Yeah, it is kind of, huh?"
"Yeah, but it smells like a swimming pool." She replied.

I laughed. It's very hard not to laugh when I'm around this girl. She's hilarious.

The book hadn't arrived at the library yet so we left.

She looked at me as we were leaving and said, "Can we be crazy and loud now?"

I love my job.

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Guilt & Trust

Guilt just makes me unaware of the power of god by diminishing my own worth and ability. I don't want to feel guilty for my own human shortcomings, or ideals. I just want to be a child of God. I don't think there's room for guilt in appreciating who I am and how I show up.

I heard once, "Love Everyone. Trust God." And I think I'd rather love everyone and leave the Trusting to my higher power. Trust implies someone will never let me down. And, for a human being, that's a pretty tall order, to never let anyone down. So, if I can just love--and expand my idea of what love looks like--those around me and turn this crazy uncertain trust issue over to my higher power, I think I might get some good results.

Where I'm at today...

Thursday, January 01, 2009

el primero

i started out the year with a bang! the bang that is my uterus sloughing off whatever was in there for the past month...and let me tell ya, whatever it is painful getting out.
i've found myself totally irritated i'm not able to hang with my girlfriends tonight, or take myself out to a nice dinner, or get out of sweat pants. i'm in cramp hell. and it's discouraging to start the year this way.
i'm hoping there is some great lesson to be learned here...or at least a little acceptance can be derived from this misfortune.
what would i rather be doing??
seeing The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and eating popcorn.
what am i doing?
reading Loop Group by Larry McMurtry and craving mashed potatoes and chicken of some sort--probably in desperate need of protein given the horrendous amount of blood loss! oh the glorious details!!!
ha. cracking myself up at writing this because i feel resentful i'm stuck at home taking care of myself. i'd so much rather be out and about and feeling well.