- at least until i find a job in my field, i will really enjoy not being this tired. nursing is tiring. it's demanding on my body and on my heart. after apr 1, i will enjoy the six weeks of not working in the hospital so i can sleep during the night and feel well-rested.
- not always answering or wanting to answer 'tired' to the question 'how are you?'
- when it's a gorgeous saturday outside, i will be so excited when i don't need to sleep through the sun, warmth and beauty that is Prescott in the spring. (right now, i am so tired, i need to sleep more; it's amazing outside. i have pangs of guilt sleep is more important than my being outside in Arizona sun.)
- not having to do myriad nurse's notes, flow sheets, med recon sheets, assessment data sheets, labor flow sheets, baby papers, ohmygosh we double and triple chart on that freaking floor; it's so exhausting, frustrating and i do not like it! i was near tears last night realizing i'm writing in two places the same information. when this internship is over, i will be very thrilled for the six weeks i have between internship and graduation not having to chart on a patient's status.
- i am excited to be a nurse. (huh? all this negative talk!) i really am excited. last night was so busy, yet i was efficient, capable and competent. i'm a new nurse. i'm not going to get it all in 75 hours of precepting. it's going to take work. and this experience is prepping me for the work involved in a new grad program, and orientation on a new floor. this is all good preparation for my career, for my life ahead.
i have so much to look forward to. even if i'm so tired when i look forward my eyes blur.