I am having a fabulous time in Switzerland. It's days filled with amazing company, whole foods nourishing my body, and the scenery and air that is revitalizing my breath! I'm hiking so much and am very active. My body is responding hugely to this lifestyle.During this process of learning more about humility, the most profound result of all was the change in our attitude toward God.12 & 12, p. 75Today my prayers consist mostly of saying thank you to my Higher Power for my sobriety and for the wonder of God’s abundance, but I need also to ask for help and the power to carry out His will for me. I no longer need God each minute to rescue me from the situations I get myself into by not doing His will. Now my gratitude seems to be directly linked to humility. As long as I have the humility to be grateful for what I have, God continues to provide for me.
In all of it, I'm very grateful. My prayers to God are consistently of the 'thank you, thank you, thank you, God' variety. It's a beautiful space to be in.
With that said, I am trying to not go to the place where I'm aware I don't have much of a job to come home to, my finances are just about gone, and I'm not sure what's going to happen with my roommate or my home. Do I move to San Diego?? Do I try to stay in Prescott? Will the NCLEX people get my Able To Test code to me so I can pick my stinking test date?!?!
In all of that, I'm realizing it's ESSENTIAL I find the gratitude to stay in today, be humble, and seek the next indicated thing from my higher power. Today, the next indicated thing is to help some kiddos with snack time, and enjoy the cool mountain air, the clouds, these Alpine peaks.
I'm doing my best to let go of my fear and to remember that Faith replaces Fear. Thank Goodness....
I hope you all are doing well, enjoying wherever it is you are.
I finished The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo by Stieg Larsson and HIGHLY recommend it and now, this Arizona girl is finally getting her hands on some Edward Abbey. I've started Desert Solitaire and so far, HOOKED...
I leave you with this Edward Abbey quote, from The Journey Home:
There are some good things to be said about walking. Not many, but some. Walking takes longer, for example, than any other known form of locomotion except crawling. Thus it stretches time and prolongs life. Life is already too short to waste on speed. I have a friend who's always in a hurry; he never gets anywhere. Walking makes the world much bigger and thus more interesting. You have time to observe the details. The utopian technologists foresee a future for us in which distance is annihilated. … To be everywhere at once is to be nowhere forever, if you ask meI think I've found a new favorite in the radical and influential Mr. Abbey. Excited!! I hope to share more about hiking in this amazing place, and to share the experiences I've been having. Time and a wobbly internet connection keeps me unable...For now, know I'm thankful for friendships that last, despite distance and time away.